If I wasnt me and was somebody else, I’d think myself afraid of being inlove. I probably am. Ive never been in love. I cant imagine myself falling for someone. The crazy for him, trusting him with everything, giving him my life kind of inlove. I mean I love my friends and family, I care, I have lots of guy friends, I get attracted to people a lot and I get attached easily but when that person starts the ‘sweet stuff’ and I feel him getting clingy and getting too close kind of stuff warning bells go off and I become sullen to that person. I think about his flaws, what a flirt he was, a playboy, How many other girls did he say that to, that kind of stuff… to the point that I cant stand him, I just close my self off and we drift away. I notice im always like that. Maybe my mom is right, im too aloof. Its just that… everyone who’s come too close before… were all the same. 

hi, this is my bitch. She’s Morgana. Morgana’s a shih tzu. She’s fatter now. She likes to play with my toes. She doesnt like getting her hair trimmed. and her nails, too. Her hair is longer now. and she gave me scars. and still does. She’s six months old. And she still pees on her bed. I think George is in love with her. My other dog. I have no picture of him. He’s shy. Morgana broke his heart. She’s not into interracial relationships. George is a hybrid you see. Of a Belgian and a Filipino. I love Morgana more than George because George loves Morgana more than me. Morgana is a lucky bitch.

but i want a cat. Ive never had a cat. My mom doesnt like cats. Cats dont like my mom. But cats like me, or so i think. I shall have a cat when my shih tzu dies. but Morgana is immortal. but I shall have a cat before I die. I shall have a cat.

You guys ever felt like you’re just being loved because you have money? You’re friends sticks around for the free stuff? like those in the movies, the rich girl with the fake friends who’s only there because of her last name and the privileges that comes along with her… I felt like that when I was in grade school, and still from time to time…

It disgusts me how these cunts are only there for me when they need me.

“Yell, can you lend me some cash?”  ”Buy this for me? please”  ”I’ll pay you back tomorrow”

and then tomorrow becomes another tomorrow, then it becomes next week, next week becomes next month and next month becomes never. But when I need them:

”______, can you help me with this?” “uh not me ask ________”

“guys, i need your help—” “yell, not now, busy… call you back later.” 

Later becomes tomorrow, tomorrow becomes next day, next day becomes next week, next month… how about just say it outright? …never.

Im not saying all my friends are like that because only God knows how grateful I am that I finally found who my real friends are. And i’ll gladly spend even a thousand for them (yes, only a thousand. )

If you asked me back then to list down all my friends, I’d end up giving you a whole bond paper, filled up back to back. lol I was a kid and too naive. But ask me now and I’ll just hold up my ten fingers and name them. 

“oh she follows back, Ill just follow her for a couple minutes…”

“oh five minutes is up, bye!”

i feel stupid crying over a piece of manga. :( its just that I get where Naruto is coming from, you know. Lol you guys dont probably know what im talking about but rn im so overwhelmed. This is certainly the best manga ive read ever. ok get on with your scrolling and ill get on reading. 

Hi, getting off tumblr C: brb. I need to catch up with Naruto. ttyal

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Its funny how the one person you’d take a bullet for…tends to always be the one behind the gun.

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so, i stumbled on a cutie on tumblr but it turns out he’s gay. brb crying a river. lol dont get me wrong, I love gay people, but you know, it’s just unlucky for us straight people how most of the hot people alive are gay. lol am i making sense? ok